Obviously, this blog does not mean as much to me as the weight I thought it bore upon me - for here I am, at 11:38pm, doing my best to fulfil an obligation that (perhaps…) should never have been made.
Why did I say I would do this every single day for a year!? The question is rhetorical; no need to answer - unless you feel compelled.
I mean, it’s not like I haven’t got enough in my life to occupy my time without adding an additional bit of writing - even if it is superficial (though, not entirely).
The reason for all this griping today is that - I had time to write this blog this afternoon but, strangely, forgot all about it.
That’s right - a complete blank.
Well, let me start over here with a little back up information; a bit of infill:
I woke up this beautiful (grey, overcast, rainy) Monday morning not feeling as awake as I should have - too many episodes of Heroes the Sunday evening before, and not enough sleep. Still, I wasn’t sick, didn’t have a cold, and all my limbs were functioning - so, eventually, I got up.
The day progressed, as these things are wont to happen, and eventually I found myself in the gym.
I wasn’t going to go today, due to my fatigue and the fact that I had a ballet class this evening - but I seemed to have blocked that out and ended up spending at least an hour and a half in the gym - working hard.
All day long I’d been toying with the idea of not going to my ballet class and finding a million excuses not to do so - too tired, too busy, not feeling well, the whole thing was a mistake to begin with, etc. - but somewhere in my head, I knew I was going to go - regardless of the whinging complainer in the back of my head.
I found myself during the latter half of the afternoon, obsessing about the class and wondering whether I would actually go or not, as I looked for things to occupy the rest of the time before I had to leave.
Funny how, during all that searching for substantial things to fill my time before the class, this blog did not come to mind, for I certainly had enough time to do it!
That’s what I’m talking about; I spent the entire late portion of the afternoon just looking for ‘filler’ in order to pass the time before I headed off to my ballet class - when, had I still a functioning (non-elderly old person kind of ) brain, I could have knocked this off in no time flat.
Instead, you find me here at almost midnight, trying to fulfil an obligation that I now (at this particular hour, anyway) find to be a slight burden - placed upon me by - no other than - myself!
Grrr!
Argh!
It did not even cross my mind for one second that I should be writing this blog instead of looking for things to fill that gap of time.
How ridiculous is that!?
Well, it’s not ridiculous at all.
In fact, it’s quite common - and there are ‘little’ adages/axioms for just such aberrations - well sort of - I mean - they could apply - like - You can’t see the forest for the trees…
I know, I know - that’s not exactly it - but it’s close.
The thing is, the thing you are forgetting is so big and taking up so much space that it’s hard to imagine not seeing it, eh!?
Well, it happens.
Sometimes, we don’t see.
And sometimes, there are consequences - some minor, some not so.
The lesson is - it’s best to keep your ears and whiskers clean in order to detect anything that might be lurking in the back of that very crowded little brain - lest it be left out!
(OH! The lameness of it all! But another day has been completed - and that’s something to crow about!)
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